I instantly wanted my own pistol necklace when I spied Whitney Cummings’ version on TV. My husband, amused by my Christmas wish, warned me that I would not always want a pistol necklace, meaning that I would not always feel a deep need for justice like I do today. But, the necklace is not a symbol of justice or vengeance, but one of power. If you have ever felt the frustrating impotence of victimization I highly recommend target shooting. It is cathartic to load, aim, and shoot a gun, more so when I hit the intended target. Just so we are clear here: I am not referring to a psychotic break during which I shoot people who have done me wrong. The calculated process involved in successfully hitting my target requires concentration and discipline, attributes that madmen typically lack. My mind cannot be sullied with bastards and bitches while focusing on my stance, breathing, grip, sighting alignment, and follow-through. The experience is all about me and I do not think of anything else while shooting.
To my delight I received a pistol pendant necklace, a sure sign that I was on the nice list despite opposing opinions and that my husband supports me even when he thinks I am a bit crazy. The pistol pendant symbolizes my approach to 2012. I began taking a beta-blocker to calm those pesky tremors I had since I was twelve, finally accepting that impressions form other’s reactions to me and my tremor was similar to blood in the water for sharks. My aim has improved, along with my blood pressure. Back to the bastards and bitches now; in order to hit my target I must focus on aligning the sights rather than the looking at the target. What is my goal/bull’s-eye? If I focus on the bastards and bitches rather than bull’s-eye justice, my accuracy will suffer, not to mention my mood. Good shooting is firmly methodical rather than knee-jerk emotional and not to be rushed. My pistol pendant symbolizes a disciplined approach and personal power, but the look of confusion on people’s faces when they notice it will be wildly entertaining, too. I may not wear it to job interviews, though.